Dreams that Affect Your Body

Many times in my life I have had clairvoyant dreams and dreams states that would be described as shamanic in nature. This morning I awoke from one of those dreams states and found my body having dramatic effects from the dream state. In the dream I feel that was being tested by a powerful spirit. A spirit that has connected with many people I know, and every time it has connected with me there has been some adverse physical response from my body. My intuition is that this spirit entity, while it is commonly worked with by many people for healing, is not completely pure in it's intentions or it's energy vibration.

The physical sensations and reactions I have had when this spirit energy is close to me or someone I am close to is very congestive and coagulative in nature. This morning the congestion was in my left ear, I awoke with fluid in my ears congesting the ears and pulsing through the left ear creating the sound of drumming in my ears. I took 15 minutes to do energy healing, Reiki and lymphatic drainage work on myself to clear it out.

I know there is a message in this for me that I will have to pray and meditate on. Perhaps there is a message for me from this spirit or perhaps the message is to help others recognize the lack of purity with this spirit.

The dream state is a safer place to explore spirit connections but I remind myself and all who are reading this that not all spirits who come into the dream state are working exclusive for our highest good without there personal agendas. The best way to discern the spirit energies communing with you or attempting to commune with you in the dream state is to listen to the reaction of your body. When I am communing with the Angels in dreams I awaken feeling light, bright, clear, curious, excited, etc. the difference is striking.

Victory to The Light!

Feeding The Soul

Life Journeys have taken me many places since my last post on this blog, but at last I return again to writing. My soul has been yearning and crying out to me to write.

Two weeks ago I was honored to host Swami BB. Bodhayan from Mayapur, India for a program at my center here in Hawaii. We chose for him a very interetsing subject to speak on, his talk was to be entitled : "Infinite Health." The talk that he gave and the wisdom he imparted for all us there that evening was more than what I had hoped for.

His essential message to us was that we feed the body, but that we need to feed the soul. He pointed out that for many of us the soul is weepin or crying. It is crying to be fed. He encouraged us to feed the soul!!!

I have been doing this more and more since his visit and dharshan. Writing is one thing that feeds my soul, singing, chanting mantras, dancing, drumming, perfoming ceremony & ritual...all of these and more feed my soul.

Tomorrow is a new moon full solar eclipse. I plan to do all of these and more....tomorrow my soul shall feast, and weep no more.

The first thing you need to know about me is that I am a modern mystic so in no way will this blog be only of the mundane aspects of my life, but of the magical and mystical nature of my reality as well.

Where to begin is the big question---what do I write about first - past, present, or future? It's an even more profound questions when you look at time from the perspective of Quantum Physics which tells us the same thing that the ancient shamans, yogi, and mystics always said, "that the past, present and future all one!" So given that time is not linear, this non-linear form is most likely the way that this blog /online journal will unfold as well.

So past, present, and future being one...that leaves us with just THE NOW! So that is where I will focus for each of these entries. It is my experience that in 'The Now' past, present and future all intersect and integrate...so here we are now!

Right now I am sitting at my dining room table looking out the window at a beautiful sunny day on the Hamakua Coast of The Big Island of Hawaii where I have lived now for almost 5 years. I truly love it here! The warm trade wind breezes are blowing in off of the ocean filling the house with warm fresh tropical air.

I tell everyone I meet that Hawaii is color therapy. I look out at the bluest of blues, the greenest of greens, and yellows and reds that just pop for your eyes delight.

I am looking out at the ocean, about 1,200 feet downhill on the sacred mountain of Mauna Kea, on whose slopes I reside. Today it is peaceful and calm. I call the ocean 'Mother Oceana' and many other sacred names, because to me the ocean is alive and has a personal presence and sacred spirit. From here on the Hamakua Coast her waters cover an expanse of almost 3,500 miles east until you come to the next nearest land mass, the western most coast of California.

Her waters are as blue as the sky. The blue of the ocean and the sky predominant from most of the windows of my house...often times, like now I look out and see vast amounts of blue all around me! In most native tribes the sky is considered to be masculine, the earth and the ocean, feminine. I see this clearly and know them only in this way, it is deeply personal to me. From my window I can see and feel that Mother Ocean and Father Sky match and rival each other perfectly in their beauty, power, and grace. There are many times when it is difficult to tell the difference between the two of them from my window. They are truly yin and yang of each other. Today the balance and harmony between them is awe inspiring!!

I find myself in awe quite regularly on my soul's journey....I consider it a good sign when the awe is there. In fact the more I realize the more awe there is. I find that this is not the same with intellectual knowledge. When I gather intellectual knowledge only it can diminish the awe that I feel and experience. From the intellect only I have seen something, learned about it, and named it---the intellect neatly files it away and the awe that once was there now becomes a name or a concept.

For example I find that I experience this allot lately when travelling out on the island. After living on an island for 5 years now there comes periods of time when I feel that I have done everything, gone everywhere, and met everyone. This is not true of course but at those times try telling my intellect and ego that. When my intellect and ego think they know everything and every place the awe goes away, leaving me with a feeling of longing for something new or something more....my ego especially is quite tricky that way. My mind then starts to see everything and everyone in a mundane way, this is very unfulfilling. Luckily I have the ability to become aware of this trick of the intellect and ego and to redirect the mind, connect to spirit, integrate the knowledge into wisdom, and return to the place of awe. Once the mind and spirit are in the place of awe it doe not matter how many times you have been someplace or done something whether it's the first time or the millionth time...you still experience it with awe.

That place of awe for me is all about being in the now...detached and yet fully connected simultaneously!

Sometimes what I am describing is called"beginners mind." It brings me great joy to be able to say that I at last feel that I am in control of my mind instead of it being in control of me, at least 51% or more of the time now. Some of you may find that number surprising for man reasons. For me it feels like a big deal, especially considering it has taken me 40 years of life, 25 years of healing, 26 years of meditation, 35 years of devotion and spirituality, and one profound near death experience to get here and now. All of which I will not go into yet, as that's the purpose of this blog.....stay tuned......more to come!

My advice to myself and all readers: Find that place of awe & stay there!

The Soul Journey of a Questing Spirit

Welcome dear friends-- Aloha to all who read this blog.

My intention with this blog is for it to be an online journal of my sacred journey through this life. My soul's journey as a questing spirit seeking love, peace, bliss....seeking to return home to who I am, what I am, and to return home to the spiritual world, the place of origin where I am from.

I will be sharing my personal thoughts, feelings, realizations, dreams, intuitions, and visions. In addition I intend to share profound insights and messages given to me by those who are my sacred helpers on my spiritual quest in this life. Some of those helpers are people who are here in my life today such as my husband/partner, friends, and associates. Yet their are many other co-creators of my reality such as spiritual masters, spiritual teachers, spirit guides, and Angels that play a major role daily in all that I am and all that I do. In this blog you will be able to read about my sacred quest, the things I am doing and the people and special beings involved...so stay tuned and check back as I add things weekly!